“I don’t know where I’m goin’
But I sure know where I’ve been
Hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday
An’ I’ve made up my mind, I ain’t wasting no more time
Here I go again, here I go again
Tho’ I keep searching for an answer
I never seem to find what I’m looking for
Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on
‘Cause I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams”
I moved to California a little over 2 years ago. I did not intend to move here and looking back at it, all I really remember is that after coming home from being in Newport Beach for 2 weeks grinding and trying to develop this territory for my former skincare line, NuGene, I had to leave.
I was home in Oklahoma City, for just over 10 hours, I had not even unpacked yet, and I looked at my girlfriend and told her “I have to get the hell out of here!” I felt this overwhelming calling to head west, so I threw my suits and workout clothes in the back of my car and drove.
My first stop was in Denver for a few days, and after getting stuck in a spring blizzard, I went to Vegas for several days to stay with friends. The calling called louder, “keep going”.
The first stop I made when I got to Los Angeles was to the world’s greatest gym, Equinox West Hollywood. After the world’s most entertaining workout (if you have ever been, you know what this means), I stopped, looked around and the “calling” I had heard, said, “this is home.”
I knew it, I knew I belonged here and this is where I would live out God’s purpose for my life. Nevermind the fact that I was not a follower of Christ at the time, but I still sought Him out for guidance, whether I was living “right” or not.
I have spent over 20 years of my life in the healthcare field, doing some type of sales. Even from a young age, I had my own way of doing things. I had my own ideas, beliefs, and a grand vision of how I wanted to world to look and how my involvement would be in that world.
One of the greatest gifts I have ever been given was that my father not only gave me a start in healthcare at a young age so that I had a real job, with real experience and he allowed me to express myself freely. Now, he had to hold the reigns back from time to time, however, I was encouraged to trust and follow my instincts.
For a free spirit, like me, that is a gift.
The only bad part of having that experience was that it put me in a position of power early on and I never learned how to do anything but walk alone. When I worked for other companies, it was always short lived because I always felt suppressed, caged and as a free spirit, I hated having my wings clipped. I hated the politics of corporate America and I was not groomed to abide by others ideology.
I was born with an entrepreneur spirit and mindset. I believe in my ideas so much that it often alienated me. In team meetings, or when recruiting sales reps for my company, I would share my vision with the same conviction in which I believed in it. Fiercely!
Grand visions are not always well received or even understood. In my case, I have learned over time, it was because not everyone understands how I communicate. Even communicating my vision properly, I was not always understood or supported. Being a visionary is lonely, especially in failure.
Failure, as so many before me have said, is necessary for success.
They key to surviving failure is to try again.
After looking failure in the eye more times than I can count, and having my fair share of successes, I have realized one very important thing. If you, If I, choose to walk down a chosen path, DO NOT expect people to cheer you along the way. DO NOT expect a pat on the back and sympathy. If you expect cheerleaders along the way, then do not start down that road.
I believe it is an entrepreneur’s duty to help their fellow man because we all fail and without the endless amounts of kindness shown to me over the years, I would not be here. I have been blessed to have many people offer the slightest bit of encouragement that seemed to come at the exact time I needed it but it never came from who I would have expected, ever.
I am not contradicting myself here although it may seem like it. I am a firm believer that if you do not believe in God, being an entrepreneur becomes even more lonely because, at times, God is all you will have to guide you. I love the entrepreneur spirit and the dedication it takes to follow your dreams and live as your own person. I would encourage all of you to pursue what you feel is right and the life you want.
Do not expect anything from anyone in your journey however when you meet a fellow entrepreneur, ask how you can help them.
Thank you for reading, God Bless you!
Joshua T. Berglan